Saturday Morning Dive

Well I suppose I am ready to return here
To this place of freedom and creativity

I sit with hot coffee, a day ahead of me

A swirly evening behind

Returning here reminds me how fast time goes

How much I have to learn

How appreciative I am of the journey.

I am realizing that all things tend to get faster with time.

Intensity greater

Payoff bigger

and understanding of one's own power gleaming

I will not enter into this lightly...dipping my toe in and remembering that I may feel very cold
but it will not take me down.

May make me take a deep breath and shutter, may bring goosebumbs to my skin

But is all protected and functional

that old saying comes to mind....."God never gives you more than you can handle"

And so I step to the edge

of that great, tall diving board

knowing that others have jumped before me

knowing that I can swim

knowing that there is a organized concoction of feelings that go along with the jump

bravery, questioning, bravery, fear (not for long), strength, determination, adrenaline, freedom, impact, relief, wonder and then the desire to do all over again.

I vow to move forward and take the leap. There will be no turning around to climb back down the ladder.

But dear universe....I ask to catch my breath in between

Be Cautious

Remember to be ready when you say out loud "bring it on" to the universe.

Always good to follow it up with a I am strong statement.

Because yes you can...

just remember to hold on for the ride.

Whew

The Nudge

I can feel it again

that nudge of creativity creeping in

about to burst forth

growth with great momentum

the muscles forming after you break them down

the slow rebuilding of tissue and strength

damn, they are looking good!

I graciously await days on the beach

soaking in the magic of the sun

the salt of the sea

the comfort of the sand, the shells, the beauty of children making friends with the beach again.

I am here

arms wide open

ready to receive all of the glory in this world

bring it on universe

I am strong and I am excited for this bountiful period of payoff.

Thank you for all of the gifts!

Last years post

This a repost from a year ago...

we are headed out there this weekend. Just in time to rejuvinate, reconnect with nature, quiet, peace...look how far we've come in the year...I love spring...and was that really a year ago?

The Ranch

A small house in the woods
only 40 minutes from home
horses roaming freely
we make friends with them
feeding them carrots and fresh green apples
majestic peacocks roam and meow like cats
a big fire pit, smokey and full
exploring galore
a pack of dogs with puppies and nursing Mama dogs run around and stop by once in a while
we work on the house
stop to eat
take a hike
continue.
dirty, dirty fingernails
burrs stuck everywhere
a morning ride on the john deer over the dirt path into the expansive open woods
purple flowers burst up into the green
my children holdings hands, balancing on a fallen tree
picture perfect
then the clan returns
loud and rough
playing horseshoes, shooting clay pigeons, pop pop breaks up the wind
drinking beer from the largest cooler one can imagine
family and bratwust, burgers and hot dogs
burnt marshmellows for dessert
the stuff dreams are made of
my son running around in fatigues with an army canteen and boots and a camo hat that were given to him. The oldest grandson who gets to try it all out first.
fishing in the steam with his Pappy
happy as can be
a ride up the road takes us to visit the farm
my daughter cuddles a one day old chick in her hand
the cowboy who runs the farm tells her she can keep it if she wants.
"We'll keep it out here, at the ranch" says Mommy
There are chickens and hens
then on to the cows
we walk right into the field with them
mooing away
they just hang out there
just to roam
stars so bright and many
how did we get here
I ask?
We are tired and spend from our fist weekend at the ranch.
There's a whole new world to explore
a gift that has fallen into our lap
we are happy and grateful
and due to take a good, long, hot, bath
back in the city.

The Universe Speaks

When you make the statement that you are tapped out and tired and have nothing left to give and feel as if you can't take anymore...sometimes the universe answers VERY loudly and says..."oh yeah?" See about this this

and you find yourself plunged head on into the most amazing of experiences

I could write for days and days and layers and layers and years and months and lifetimes.

I am moved beyond belief and very aware that when I feel stripped to my core and bone tired I do in fact have more to give. Much more than I could ever imagine

I have emerged with a chill in my spine that may never go away and a warmth in my heart that is exactly the same temperature as the tears of relief that stream down your cheeks when you realize that every little thing is going to be all right.